Before I Was A Mom

12-5-08

One of my favorite emails. It's right into what I feel. I even added a few of my own. Things never really seemed so important until I became a mom. 

My life changed and I must say it was for the better. There is no real joy like that of your own child’s smile or giggle.

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or sang lullabies

I never thought about immunizations

I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Chewed on - Peed on

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts

I slept all night

I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests or give shots

I never looked into teary eyes and cried

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin

I never thought a weed from the front yard could be such a beautiful flower

I never knew that crayon scribbles would be the most beautiful drawings in the world

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much

I never knew that I could love someone so much

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby

I didn't really understand that bond between a mother and her child

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom

I never knew that hearing the word 'Mama' for the first time would make me cry

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much

I never knew I would love being a Mom